There is something about love. Whether it’s the mystery of how it feels or knowing that one day you’ll find that one guy who you will truly love and he will feel the same. I’ve grown up around a generation who want to grow up and be doctors or become movie stars. But I’ve always just wanted to be a wife with children. It’s not the normal thing to want, but the excitement of how amazing life will be to not have to worry about being alone forever, not having to impress people, not having to care if the guy you like doesn’t like you back. Because you’ll have him. I’ll be one step closer to my life dream and I’ll be happy. I understand that there is always the chance that you won’t find it. But I’d do anything to just be in love. I don’t want to be in love now. I want to be in love in the future. I don’t want love to be planned, I don’t want it to be sudden. I want it to grow. I want it to be a rush of excitement every time something new happens. I’m fed up of seeing people fall in love at a young age. Yes, I’ve thought I was in love. I thought that some guys really were the answer but it’s never gone well. They’ve always just wanted sex, but that’s not what it’s about. I can grow up and tell my kids about my childhood because I haven’t done anything to hide. People need to start thinking about what they’re doing. If you give your virginity to a girl who you think you’re in love with what are you going to do when your future partner asks you about it, what are you going to be able to share with that person that you haven’t shared with anyone else?
And it sucks, because they always leave me. No matter what. I guess I’m just that easy to walk away from & forget. It’s okay though, I’m used to it. But just because I’m used to it, doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt everytime.
(Source: cr4zy-beautiful, via itsalwaysthesamething)
We will never actually be together forever…
